February 10, 2009Emotions taking me over.....
Dear Father:
It has come to my recent awareness that I have the ability to feel and express emotions extremely strong...and I wonder how beneficial this is, or for what
purpose did you create this for? Why was I created with a heart so big that the slightest occurrence is cause for emotion? Why do I feel things that others don't, hurt when others don't care, cry when my perfect happiness is faltered, take offense when I feel that anyone else is not completely pleased?
What is the purpose for this extreme capacity for emotion? I'm wondering why I must be faced with so much because of the way I am created to feel?
So many questions arise as to me, my mind, and my feelings, I wish someone could match my level. I wish there was someone out there that understood exactly why I hurt when I can't make it great for them...someone who knew how it feels to see someone you love so much and it feels like they just returned home to you from a long trip away from in your presence....the excitement, anticipation, overwhelming sense of pure joy is your peak...someone who feels absolute peace, love, and comfort like the presence of a child......someone who strives for company who understands that perfect moments are those that are set out over a
short span of time but it exists because of someone's presence and Aura......someone who appreciates absolute attention because they are THAT important.
Someone who is so unselfish that their happiness arises in the presence of someone else's happiness first......someone who will let you absorb of their spirit and they absorb of yours.
Or is this love...pure love. Is this combination of feelings what love really is supposed to be? If this is love I ask that you send me a person to spend my life with that understands and knows what it feels like to have "emotions taking me over."
Love always,
me
